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| okay so heres the thing.. people are complaining AT me because i haven't had time to see them. but its like this.. almost all of my friends here are in school right now, as in, this week. almost all of my friends have jobs in the evenings and on weekends. and ALL of my friends have other commitments that they have to take care of as well. so why is it just expected that since i'm not in school this week that i should be able to see everyone all the time? there are a lot of people that i wanted to see this week that i haven't. but here's the thing, i wrote about the weekend in my last entry. and what i was doing on monday. which went as planned and i spent monday evening with my parents. tuesday morning my aunt called and she had to take my grandpa to the hospital so me and my mom went down there and i stayed until i had to go to "work" at the elementary school, and then went back til i had to pick up brooke from school. then went back. and this is how wednesday and today have been spent. i've barely been on the computer, i don't really care to, there are more important things right now. i'm only on now to write what i needed to get out, and put up an away message so i can hopefully have people praying for my grandpa. i am only home now because i had to make gift bags for the kids in my class at central and i knew i wouldn't feel like it later. the doctor came in today and told us that its going to be a real stretch if my grandpa even makes it 2 weeks. being as how i've been in school, i've barely seen him. BECAUSE I OPTED TO SEE THESE SAME FRIENDS THAT ARE COMPLAINING NOW OVER SEEING HIM WHEN I'VE COME HOME PREVIOUSLY, SO THEY WOULD BE THE HAPPY ONES. i can't imagine how he feels. i know that one day when i was home on the weekend, i was with my mom and i ran by his house to get something and he just didn't want me to leave. i could tell. he kept talking and dragging out things so that i would stay. and now i don't have the time to see him because i have to leave again on sunday. and this might be the last time i see him in all honesty. and that SCARES me. BAD. so i'm spending what time i can with him. people will have to either understand or not. i can't keep explaining myself. i have things going on too. and i'm sorry, i wish i could just put time on hold and spend lots of time with everyone, but i can't. and right now, my grandpa has to be first. maybe people would understand better if they knew, or maybe they'd still be ill wiith me, but it just is what it is. i know that i started out last year at this exact time, with all 3 grandparents that i had my WHOLE life.. and now, i'm down to 1 and they've said week(s). MAYBE. | | |
| okay, from now on, all my posts are going to be protected because somehow stupid people are gettin in and readin my stuff.. i mean, i guess thats my own fault for not protecting it in the first place. anyway.. if you want to read my stuff, and you aren't already on my protected list, leave a comment or IM me on AOL >>bootyLishzbabe42<< and i'll add you... IF i like you | | |
| I'm at Casi's house .. new xanga .. woo hoo. I will write later ..
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